Whenever we get afraid, or do something that is totally unmentionable, we have a tendency to call on a "higher power!" Typically, It sounds something like this: today's Question is to finish this sentence......
Lord, If you let me out of "this," I promise, I won't do anything like this again. My Question, what is the "This" in reference to your life??? Did you ever do it again ???
H. Williams, MBA
Life Coach, Motivational Relationship Speaker,
Author, Anatomy of a Cheater
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I haven't prayed a prayer like that in sum years but when I did pray a prayer like that it was usually immediately after I had been arrested lol... "this" usually meant DRIVING ON A SUSPENDED LICENSE...and yeah, I did "it" again...duh
ReplyDeleteAnatomy, I never chime in on your topics, normally I just read, laugh, sigh, and move on, but this one really touches my soul. YES, this has happened to me. Once, my friend was working out of town extensively and asked me to take care of his children, grass, and odds and ends around his house in his absence. Well, he had 2 children and was fixed (spaded/neutered so to say) His wife and I started messing around harmlessly just to keep her cheating under wraps. I was just gettin sum every now and again. She was fixed too, so we lost the condoms shortly after starting. 6 months in, she was real late on her period and found out she was pregnant! I prayed and prayed to the almighty that if he took care of this issue, I would NEVER cock her legs open again. We were sweating bullets! We found out she was pregnant in her tubes (the ones that should have been tied) and eventually miscarried. I think it was divined intervention and her husband, my best friend, NEVER found out. After a few months, she asked me to come over one night and "take the stress off" as she called it. I told her Hell MF NO. God helped us once, I ain't asking him NO MORE! It was good, but not good enough to kick Hell's doors in Twice!
ReplyDeleteLil Derrick K.
Lil Derrick K.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your story with us. That is usually how it works, once we are relived by the big Guy above, we forget how bad that feeling was and try our luck again. We always have to call on somebody, so we normally look to the hills, which cometh our HELP, the problem is, we look there too many times for the same damn reason. Like they say on ESPN, Come On Mannnnn!
Thanks for sharing !
H. Williams, MBA
Well Doc, I would have to say it is my pendfing divorce. I have always had this uncanny ability to fall head over heels for someone who did not serve my purpose. I love being the nurturer so I subconsiously sought out men who could gleem from me, allowing me to push them into their purpose and satisfy the urge within to care for him like no other had before. While, many may think whats wrong with that.... let me tell you. I would get so wrapped up and they are so busy taking that no deposits are being made into me. Over time, it left me empty, bitter and once again longing. I shortchanged many times like this but i have drawn the line in the sand. NO MORE!!!
ReplyDeleteWhen I come out of this season, I plan to pray for some one who I can still pour into but he would yearn to do the same for me. We would have a life of debits and credits..... no more lopsided loves.
While there has been many instances that I have prayed this prayer only one comes to mind at the moment. During my first marriage I had had an affair with a doctor at the hospital I worked at, got caught and before I lost my job, I was definitely praying for both he and I. He didn't lose his job of course but I did. Did I do that again you ask, well I didn't lose a job ever again but I did cheat again. If you don't extract the root cause of the behavior within, you tend to repeat it!
ReplyDeleteTanya and Cindy,
ReplyDeleteMy purpose for this question was simple, we call on a higher power to extract us from our wayward behavior, but when the calm hits, do we repeat what made the storm in the first place; typically, we have a tendency to be right where we left off earlier in our life, hangin on the cliff! Sad, but true, I have been there several times in many different scenarios, however, collectively, we can all say this.....EVENTUALLY, we do learn from our mistakes!
Thanks for opening your heart for us all to peek in!
H. Williams, MBA